My guitar and I have been best friends since I was 9 years old, tho not this one, there have been a few over the years. We have laughed, cried, travelled, slept rough, slept in fine hotels. Finding a way to bring her back into my life so that I can hold and play her in a way that is hearing friendly to my hyperacusis and tinnitus, has given me back a sense of self that I thought was gone forever.
The problem was that the top strings of the guitar, trigger my hyperacusis to spike and when I change strings, a certain noise is made as the fingers slide between chords. Those of you who play will know what I mean here.
This inter-chord noise is so loud to me, that it is painful, like nails down glass and makes the whole process of playing unpleasant and so I stopped all together, until a dear friend, Miranda Betts, told me about a woman she knew who played only one chord all the way through a song, as if it were a drone, a bit like one might play the sitar or the shruti box .
I started exploring chords that resonated with my soul, and chanting around them, as if pouring sacred oils on the sacred. The whole process began a re-connection to my heart strings at so many different levels and I am excited to try and find ways of sharing this bliss with you. For now, I am bathing in the joy of recognising Self. It feels like it did way back on that fist day, when, on one hazy Summer's afternoon, Mr Green put a guitar in my arms and I felt as if I had come home.
Author: Cheryl Beer
My name is Cheryl Beer. This blog is a sacred space for me to share love. I am so overwhelmed by the levels of fear and hate in the world that I feel almost powerless to do anything about it. Surely, someone as small as me couldn't possibly make a difference, could they? In my youth, I tried being angry to make change. In my thirties, I tried postulating research to make change. In my forties, I tried rolling up my sleeves and running myself ragged to make change, but now, as I pass through the menopausal stages of my fifties, I know in my heart that I can make the biggest change simply by living love and sharing love. Not the capitalist notion of love, not romantic love or sexy love, rather the pure raw energy of being a compassionate, caring human being, for in sharing this, perhaps I will inspire others to follow suit.